Think of numbers that are important to you
and now think of the years you’ve spent
imagining those numbers.
How many people do you love,
would you say, if you were asked
to be honest, to be truthful?
Would you list all of those who
you’ve held onto? Or the ones
you’ve left or lost as well?
How many times have you tried
to think of something funny to say
and come up with nothing? More
than ten times? Twenty? Is it an
uncountable number? Let’s try
to count them up together.
When you first found out you
could feel lonely, how old
were you? Were you old enough
to drive away?
How many people have loved you,
would you say, if you had to be honest,
be truthful, and only count the ones
that you know meant it when they said
they loved you?
Would you list only the ones you’ve
loved in return? Or the ones who you
wished loved you more? The ones
who let you go or fought for you or tried
to break your heart?
How many times have you woken
from a dream in which you were
a tree? Or a dream where you
could fly and it was easy? Or a dream
where the floor of your house gave way
and you drifted off into the ocean and
your best friend was an island and your
childhood pet was talking to you about
coconuts and lemon pie?
How any numbers have you thought of?
How many numbers have you already forgotten?
How long will you continue to spend imagining